I have something I've been struggling with for the last 12-18 months and I need some advice. Please note I already feel like a bad mother and a shitty person for having these thoughts.
I have 2 kids 7 and 3 I love them to the ends of the earth would do anything for them. Since 2012 I have been a single mum. I left their dad and moved from Sydney back to my home town. Their father had seen them for a total of 5 weeks in the last 2 yrs and 2 of those 5 weeks I have been with them. I was young when I had them both 19 and 24 so didn't get any time for me. For the last 18 months I have been thinking I would love for them to go live with their father. I would love to be able to get a job ( small mining town so it's long hours etc) finish studying so I can provide long term for my kids in a couple of years. I would love to travel even go on a holiday alone for a week even In aus. I know it may sound selfish and it prob is but I can't do anything job or study wise because I have no one for my kids and I don't want to be on centrelink the rest of my life.
Some advice would be great for mums or dads that have done this or people who understand.
1st baby due start of sep