I think i ruined my ex's life! See we had this long on-going thing for several years that was kind of off and on and during one of the off times i fell pregnant with my current husbands baby and told my ex that we wouldn't be able to continue this on off stuff any more cause i was committed to my now husband and wanted to raise our baby in a happy home with a mum and dad ect ect. Anyway back then he said i should stay with him and raise the baby as our own but i never really thought he was being serious because he'd never even said he loved me or anything and i just figured he didn't want to loose a booty call.
So anyway.. he moved away but we've always kept in contact and to make things more weird he's also a friend of my husband's (yes husband knows all about this stuff) So the other day i was thinking of him and send him a text asking how he was and his girlfriend of years was ect ect and then today totally out of the blue he sends me heaps of messages saying he wishes my son was his and that it should of been him that i married and he loves me and that i'm the reason he hasn't been able to move on with his own life and marry his long term girlfriend because he's never felt so in love as he does with me ect. Anyway it's been about 4 years since i've seen him and i still love him in a way.. more as a friend but anyway.. i feel like i've stuffed up his whole life!! I feel so so so guilty.. i don't know what i can do
Sorry i just needed to get that out
jamie 6yrs dylan 3yrs davan 18mths No4 EDD 11.9.09